LEAVE!

Leave!

Friendship or relationship is supposed to be a safe zone; a place where your mistakes will not be your end, a place where you can find peace, love, growth, positive criticism, fun, prayer and most importantly compatibility. It is supposed to be a place where you can be open without being ashamed, somewhere you can pour your heart out, somewhere you won't be judged, somewhere you can happily be yourself while being around another person(s).

How beautiful this concept is but it sounds like utopia right? Well, that's because most friendships or relationships are not what they ought to be. They've become more personal than relational. 

Growing up I have always felt like I don't belong in certain cliques or to some group of people (even till now, I still feel this way.) I have always walked out of conversations, friendship zones and gatherings that exhaust me. For this reason, I have been tagged a loner and a sad human, but the the truth is that I can't keep up with anything that drains me. Some people tend to stay and endure the toxicity as well as abuse but what they don't know is that this toxicity and abuse is very unhealthy for their mind, self esteem and general wellbeing.

Some times, all you need is a small circle of people; a circle of people that would always be there for you. I thrive in my small circle and I don't care whatever name I have been tagged or will be tagged. It's okay to have few friends and keep your circle small but what is not okay is when you start to lack a sense of belonging. Whenever you start feeling like you don't belong in a particular clique and your intuition is telling you to leave, you need to be obedient to that voice and Leave!

Leave whenever you feel drained, leave whenever you feel left out, leave when the daily conversation is not helping you grow, leave whenever your interests don't  matter to them anymore, leave when everything chokes, just make sure that you are wherever brings you peace. Peace should not be regarded as overrated, neither should it be underrated.

In any relationship or friendship that you find yourself, ensure that the person you are choosing is choosing you too. In a case where you sense that you're in a one-sided situation say "I don't belong here!" boldly and loudly with all your humanity, then leave! Any friendship or relationship that feels one sided even after you have tried your best, should see you detach from it because you ought to feel that you are enough all the time. Try to get friends that make you feel enough, like some of mine. I know that some of my friends will always be there for me and I will always be there for them too. 

I guess this rant is sufficient for you to know that you're enough. So, I'd have to drop my pen here. Till I write to you again, remember to always stay hydrated, protect your peace of mind and leave when you don't feel a sense of belonging.

Don't forget that I am always here and I will be rooting for you because I love you! 

Love, light and hugs.