Too Early or Too late?

Are you stuck in between, thinking "I am too young to be stressing myself" or "I am too old to be wasting time?" If yes, then we are in this together.

I'm the type of person that can neither be easily pressured to do anything when I am not ready nor pressured to do something when I don't feel like doing it. For instance, whenever I tell people that I don't like having fun on my birthday, it always sounds like I am just one sad girl that hates life or I am over acting but the truth is that each birthday comes with some sort of crazy anxiety that makes me just want to lay in bed because each new age cones with the "you are not where you suppose to be  thoughts"and most times I feel there is really no achievements worth celebrating. Even though I tend to stand tall in my decisions, at some point I must confess that the pressure is getting wesser. lol.

If you have been faced with the pressure of "you should do this at your age,"or  you should  do that before you clocked this particular age," then you will understand this post better.

I've heard people say this countless times "enjoy life, enjoy each moment, make mistakes, learn from each mistake, build connections"  but then I also hear the same people say "be focused, build a life, don't waste your youth, make money, build a career, I made my first million at your age bla bla bla" then I wondered what they really want because these two set of advices leave me in a dilemma. More often than not, I don't know which to choose and I become really overwhelmed. 

The truth is this; every human has their own timing and its never the same. The mystery of not knowing our own exact time sucks especially when it looks like everything seems to be moving so fast. Sometimes, it is even further mysterious when it makes us feel like we are lost in the tides. 

If you can relate to everything I've said in this post, there is a good news and a bad news. The good news is me letting you know that you are not alone while the bad news is a reminder to let you know that the feelings will not stop. We just have to find a way to embrace this brutal honesty and live with the pressure. In the face of all these, I want you to know that you are not alone, you are doing just fine.

I love you and I am rooting  for you.

Love and  champagne 🍾